Let's Get Personal

I don't mind going out of my way for the People that I Love..... I would do any and everything that I could to help and to be there for them. But I don't like the feeling of being taken advantage of......

Why Care so much when the other Person doesn't seem to care at all?

If you know me so well, how can you not look at me and tell that something is wrong? Or something just isn't right. I don't look back at too much that happened and dwell on it. But just don't bring it in to the present and still expect me to look past it or be so ignorant as to think that I dont pay attention or realize what is going on...... Dont do that. I am very aware, very open, very intelligent...... Not much can get past me..... At all...... Do the right thing and make the right decision!! Finally.

Time 2 Get Personal

It's time again, for me to drop one and get a little more personal with it..... I'm a go off of just how I'm feeling right now at the moment......

I am tired of not knowing where I stand with the Person that I love and wanna be with. Also who is, My Son's Mother. I keep asking her to work with me and see if we can be together..... And she just keeps pushing off the conversation. Her mom and her got in to a fight and she automatically assumes she can move in to my house until she can get in to somewhere else. wich is my own fault. I know. I allow it.... So i enable her. Really, I love her and I know I'm, wrong for accepting it, but I do.... I am getting to the point now, where she has got to decide. My son can always stay here..... But I cant do this anymore. If she is talking to, or with other people, she needs to lean on them..... I have to have this talk with her and it has to be resolved. Cause I am never getting the chance to move on...... And whatever it is considered after or however I am looked at, I am and have always been the one there for her and there to fix everything for her, and she is taking advantage and now is the point where I am at, where I am tired of it and I have had enough!! DONE!! She needs to either be a mother and commit to her son and the person who loves her or move on...... And leave me alone!!

"Don't Walk Away"

I know between alot of pressures in the relationship overall between my son's mother and myself. And with the issues that we had early on and being that we were both so young and immature when it came to being ready for this kind of committment and parenting. Maybe this really is what we needed was a little time in beteen and seperation. Even though throughout the entire time, I stood right by her side and really didn't wanna be with anyone else. And knowing that she had met someone and had a relationship build and over a period of time, it didnt work out. But to this day still it effects me.... It is something that I never wanted to happen. I love this woman with all of my heart, so it may be something that i can never forget and never truly completely get over and/or forget.... I do forgive her. I would never hold it against her and jeapordize my son's feelings, heart, and well-being.... Or put the wall up that would block us from ever really getting the chance to ever be together again.....

Sometimes you have to really evaluate the terms, emotions, feelings, situations and do what is really the best for everyone. Including yourself.... I want to spend the rest of my life with her and have a home for my son and where e can be a family. Together. Where he can feel safe, comfort and know that this is his rock and right here is the foundation that holds us all together..... I promised him and her both.... That nothing in this world is more important to me and I would never walk away!!